Realizations, yet...
Monday, June 11 | 0 comments
Anyway, it's still don't change that someday, I'm going to register to Aika and murder them all but my com has... problems... It will be fixed in such a loooong time till my STPM ended. I also couldn't continue playing SMT: Devil Survivor 2 and it's kinda annoying.
Not only in FB, but in school, I feel like crying in many ways. Why am I being such a weak person anyway? I should just ignore them and continue my works on those drawings for Paper 3 Seni Visual. Oh, Kolokium already ended, thank god. But not for me because I didn't even sent the folio...
The reason is unknown because I been accidentally knocked everyday. Knocked by car's ceiling, by a nearby chair, door, book, wall etc. I even embarrassed myself in front of AnisChan's mom when knocked by the car's ceiling after shake hands with her mom... ahhh...
I think someday, my memory will become more fussier or may have injured my head unconsciously. Why did this happen to me? My head already hurts much by having personalities &stress. Can't I just leave it to rest and unhurt? GAAAH! very annoying...
Why am I writing this anyway? Oh, to release some tensions...
Now, I feel like watching Running Man again... I have been watching from ep1~23 and 74~newest. I want to watch them all so that I can understand their personalities better and after that... *grin* I will be making Running Man FanFiction called Running Man: Mission Disaster. kekeke, wonder will I make it or not.
also, lately... I have been thinking about my first original Character; Kaze... OC of Kingdom Hearts. I don't plan on revealing his real identity but I plan on making his characters in Kingdom Hearts on what is his real role in it. It's kinda sad though... whenever I thinks about his role in the story...
I don't exist in their hearts, dreams nor memories."
---the words he kept repeating in his mind.
He's only have a minor role in the story. A background character. He isn't a shadow nor a nobody. He is just a person who shouldn't be exist in his world either other world.
Gaaaah! Why am I making a character that have sad story? Oh... I know the reason... If I were to write more, it would definitely spoil/becomeAspoiler of the story. So, let's stop now.
Now that the final semester has come, I decided to try my best to work hard. But I don't know how far will I reach without an aim toward the University. I wanted to work after STPM or filling my days with drawings/writings everyday till the end because that is what I truly enjoy doing even though peoples think it's anti-social and useless things to do.
However, if I'm going to University and still can do whatever I want... I don't mind. I could make more memories and gain more imaginations as a dreamer. Meaning and in conclusions, whatever happen, I will do and try my best on STPM. Hopefully, in the end... it will be a tears of joy.
Before I end this meaningless writing, I just wanted to say...
I know I have many and what peoples seen isn't the real me but... Though they are not 'me' but they are a 'part' of me. I'm them and they are me. They may be not the real but they are... me.
I really hope that someday, I would find a person that would accept both my strength and weaknesses just like Aki meets the person he truly love in the other-side... *wink* keep it as a secret between writer and readers but he doesn't mind, really. He already accept that person and I'm happy for him. I hope I can find something like his partner someday but I can't be choosers... I will accept anyone that are fated to be with me. >////< anyway!! These things is the 'things' way ahead. Should be thinking about it!
Although... I still am thinking that someday, I will register to Aika and murder all of you. That can't be change except for my computer is broken =w=
Thanks for the sweet memories and thanks for reading. Ja, mata nee~
Labels: Daily-daily final school-life, Drawing-Writing Kioku, Original Character
