Sorry that I'm currently in foul mood. Being stressed by works, stressed by something and yelled by Shiroko ended up making me into this mood. Also, uncontrollable feelings of sadness and such... I came to gave up.
It's stupid to think alot, yet I'm a virgo. I hate the fact of being a virgo. Being a born actor and perfectionism. It's stupid. I always copy other people's personality and then, they told me to be myself but when I show it... They denied that is myself. I'm not a cheerful, happy-go-lucky, supportive person.
That is what you called my other personalities. So, don't say that you know who I am. I don't even understand it myself and know what am I thinking, so don't place yourself that you know me better and know my real personality. I hate that.

Why am I acting like cheerful, etc though, I am not? Simple... I just want to be like that and I'm a born actor for myself only. Is it wrong? Plus, if peoples said that I'm like that, well... I will just be like what you want and didn't care less what you thought of me.

Anyway~ I don't care whether I'll lose readers when writing it. Do I even have royal readers? Oh, yeah. I have two important person and I don't want to lose them. The person I always want to hangout with whenever holidays coming and another mysterious person.
Those peoples that I planned not to lose, now and forever. I don't know they realized it or not because I cried when I felt like I'm losing them. Meaning, the 'real' me doesn't want to lose them...
Same as Rp Cluster. I cried because the fact that I began to lose them since me and Saki argued. I have always thought of returning in this two weeks of holiday but it seems nothing happen in that place. Probably everyone busy with works and Aika...

Speaking about Aika, I don't hate Aika. I just hate the fact that you guys play Aika and ignores the peoples who doesn't play the game. Maybe someday, I'm going TO FREAK'N LOG IN INTO AIKA, RAISE Incredibly HIGH LEVEL AND MURDER YOU ALL whenever you guys log in.
That is what I'm feeling right now.

Oh, ah~ I just read about Zodiac sign again... What I found out is, a relationship with a leo will never be good... No wonder I hate Leo, except my lil sister because she is Leo~
The most funny relationship is Cancer and Virgo... amazingly matched with each other(?) *laughing while rolling on the bed* very funny la and I have some of Aries personality... probably because of my dad~
I know that we shouldn't believe what the zodiac write because it isn't true at all! Well... some part of it are true and that's what fun to read for now~

... I think my mood improved :DD going to write about AFA now!

Labels: Daily-daily final school-life, Memoir Roleplayer Cluster